There are some things in life you just know.  It’s a fact.  Nothing anyone does or says could ever, would ever, sway you from what you know to be true.

Case in point, I have been going to the gym now, for the past couple of weeks, without a membership.

My limited time visitors pass expired awhile ago, but my unflinching knowledge that I AM going to the gym has kept me getting in.  It’s not up for discussion.  It’s not up for debate.  Going to the gym and working out is something I’m doing, it’s something that is just going to happen.  And I know that without doubt.

So, with that ‘knowing’ I have breezed by the front desk now countless time.  Being waved in.  Passing others who are stopped at the desk for whatever reason.  Never showing my pass, never asked any questions.  The energy I’m putting out is of someone who is going to work out.  The people at the front receive that energy subconsciously, and in I go.

I’m not trying to get away with not paying, that’s not the point.  My point is, that you don’t have to pay when you are in alignment with what you want.

Sometimes life gives you exactly what you asked for and you just don't see it.  Recently I was described in an article as 'former' porn star, Eddie Stone.

It took me aback.  Former?  I never retired.  Former?  Eddie Stone is still alive and well, on Facebook, on Twitter, in blogs and even as writer, producer and host of gay porn's entertainment news & reality show, Hard TV!

What bugged me at first about the word former, was that it implied I was done with the adult industry.  I'm not.  Former implies I have nothing left to offer the industry.  I do.  And the simple use of the word former in front of my name, without myself putting it there first, put me in a box of what the writer thinks a porn star should be doing.

Good question.  What does a porn star do?  Obviously, they have sex on camera.  But that's only the tip of the iceberg for someone who has built a name for themselves.  Interviews, blogs, social media, appearances and finding ways to expand the experience.

When I moved home to Toronto from L.A., my intention was to continue in the industry, but in ways that were going to expand my experience.  It's easy to get caught up in the fast cash and easy fame of stripping down in front of the cameras, but it takes a brave man to take it to the next level.  What is the next level?  The unknown can be scary.

So, the other day, I was stewing over all ‘former’ business at lunch on a sunny patio. And then it hit me: I asked life to give me more. I asked for the next level. I wanted to be more than people’s short definition of what a porn star is. And I got my wish: ”Former” porn star Eddie Stone.

I asked life to give me more.  I asked for the next level.  I wanted to be more than people's short definition of what a porn star is.  And I got my wish.  "Former" porn star Eddie Stone.  I have to be brave enough to be more than the title  of porn star.  I have to let go of my iron grip on those words.  Relax, Eddie Stone, life is showing you that yes indeed you are 'former' porn star Eddie Stone, because now, you are that and so much more!

I want what I want when I want it!  I like things to instantly manifest in my life.  I’m impatient.  I like to see results… like yesterday.  My challenge in life is to give birth to an idea, enjoy the feeling of the idea and allow the co-operative components to come together to make it happen.

Take my recently manifested foray into the world of TV!  Four years ago I moved back to Toronto with an idea.  I had it all mapped out in my brain.  The perfect show for me.  I pitched the idea and it got as far as contract signing.  But then, it all fell apart.

I tried to keep positive.  I tried to give the network what they wanted.  I tried.  But ultimately, nothing came of it.  I was frustrated.  Frustrated that it took so fucking long to get it to the point I had gotten it, only to have it eventually shot down.

It took me a long time to let go of the disappointment of that.  I wanted something so badly, but I was too aware of the absence of it in my life to allow it to come.  “I want it, where is it?” “I want it, but I don’t have it.”  “I’ve been so long without it.” “Why don’t I have it?”  “I deserve it, but it’s not here.”

Not a good story to repeat in your head.  So, I let it go.  I focused on other things in my life.  Things that were working out for me.  And then, something magical happened…

While my attention was on other things, all the components were coming together behind my back.  Before I knew it I was being contacting by Brett Drysdale with a show idea he was working on for Hard TV.

Fast forward to today and the premiere of the entertainment news and variety show called Hard TV starring myself, Ryan Russell and Jeremy Feist tonight at 10pm on Hard TV (Canada) and on NakedSword and Squirt (Worldwide)!

I had a dream, focused on positive things in my life (in this case things that had nothing to do with my dream) and turned around to see the dream having assembled itself while I wasn’t looking!

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I talk dildos, reveal who my favorite co-stars were and who I’d like to fuck in the future!

Enjoy!

For my hubby: Shaun Proulx

Sex is sex right?  Wrong.  Sex can be casual.  Sex can be formal.  Sex can be anonymous.  Sex can be planned.  Sex can be spontaneous...

Is there a difference between having sex and making love?  Yes.  One is more a physical experience, the other emotional...

When you have sex, instinct rules.  Grabbing, groping, kissing, fucking.  Sex can be with anyone and at anytime...

When you make love, there is so much more at play.  Being in love means you know this person inside and out and accept ALL of them...

When you make love, you tickle their funny spots.  When you make love, you laugh while you're doing it….

When you make love, the touch is familiar.  When you make love, the smells are familiar.  When you make love, it's like coming home...

When you make love, the connection is strong are you are safe in the arms of 'the one'...

Sex is fun.  The release feels good.  And anonymous sex is a thrill.  The unknown, the new, the undiscovered...

At the end of the day, the cheap thrills of sex pale in comparison to the experience of making love to the one you love!

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xoxox

Taken from my PORN STAR BED TIME STORY.  Every Hump Day Wednesday at 8pm!
My Resolutions for 2012 are…

1. Care less what other people think.

2. Do more things that get my heart racing (un-sex related)

3. Give more compliments

4. Lower my defences and walls more easily

5. Call my friends more

6. Call my family more

7. Take that first step in those projects I’ve been putting off

8. Take more risks

9. Laugh more often

10. Organize a kick ass sex party!

People are people.  People like different things.  Different colors, different food, different weather, different sexual acts.

Take me, for instance.  I like kissing.  I like eating ass.  I like to fuck doggie style.  And I like to ride a cock cowboy style!

All in all, I’m pretty tame (if by tame you mean ready to fuck at any time, totally versatile and will do it anywhere like a dog)

But I do have my preferences.  Sometimes you don’t even know what your preferences are until you are wrist deep in some guys ass.

Yep, there I was, a nameless ass in my face, my fingers probing around the tender hole, when the guy started pushing back

One finger turned to two, then three, then oops there went my hand.  At this point I had never done something like this before

So, it was a bit of a shock.  I wasn’t really prepared.  I didn’t know the proper protocol or etiquette.  Do I keep probing deeper?

I oohed and ahhed a bit, massaging his ass cheek with my other hand and slowly pulling out of his hole with the other

All clear, the deed was done, I was no longer a fisting virgin!  Check that off my bucket list!

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Once upon a time there lived a young man from the North who followed his cock South...

In the dazzling sunshine he had sex with other men who had gathered for the same reason...

Free to be himself, to do what he wanted, to do WHO he wanted, and all on his own terms...

He scoffed at the idea of marriage, he thought "I'm not the marrying type! Besides I enjoy being ME too much!" ...

But as quickly as he had traveled South, he again found himself in the familiar surroundings of the North...

It is there, when he least expected it, that the boy fell in love. And it is HE that proposed that the two be married...

He realized, I CAN still be me.  I can live my life by my rules and not hold anyone accountable for the way that I feel...

A perfect union! Two people in alignment with themselves pouring love on one another, not needing the other to behave in a way that makes them happy...

The union, formed on September 10th 2011 has lasted now more than 72 days.  For those that suggest Gays ruins the sanctity of marriage, I say…

I didn't know Kim Kardashian was gay?

*As posted on Twitter during my PORN STAR BED TIME STORY!

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This weeks topic: Bottoms!

Since time eternal (or at least since the appearance of porn on the small screen) the prejudices against bottoms have existed…

Tops used to get paid more per sex scene.  The thought being that a top is masculine, in control, the epitome of man…

Then what does that say about bottoms? That they are feminine, submissive second tier porn stars? …

Guess what? In the face of societies prejudices, a bottom is man enough to own it…

There is nothing more in control then dictating who will penetrate you and in what position…

Bottoms give the green light.  Bottoms tell you when they’re done.  Bottoms are the puppet masters.  Without bottoms there are no tops…

Without a bottom, there would be no gang bang scene like the one I starred in, in “Set In Stone” …

Then why the prejudices against bottoms?  Easy, because as Madonna said, “It’s ok to be a boy, but to be a girl is degrading…”

Anyone can top, but to be a good bottom, now that’s a prize worth holding on to!  Bottoms, be proud and stick those asses up!

Check out “Set in Stone” here!

I came across a still from the movie 'Workload' for Jet Set recently and noticed something.  It was the shirt I was wearing.  I couldn't believe it, but I still owned that shirt.

I ran upstairs and dug it out of my closet, taking a whiff of the armpits.  Man smell!

I was about the throw it in the pile for the used clothing store, when a voice inside me said, "Hey, slow down there big boy, someone might want that shirt!"

And why not?  That shirt has seen some action!  It's been on camera!  It's been up close and personal with co-star Tyler Saint, the 2009 Grabby Award Winner for Hottest Cock: Cut (incidentally, his first movie).

And there it is... the famous shirt!  You can own your very own piece of Eddie Stone memorabilia!  All you have to do is comment on this blog and leave your bid.

Bidding starts at $50.  Good luck!